Saturday, December 31, 2016

Relax, Radiate, Rejoice

"Edit your life frequently and ruthlessly. It's your masterpiece, after all."
~Nathan W. Morris



2017

R E L A X. R A D I A T E. R E J O I C E

Blowing Rock, NC Dec 31, 2016


Prayer + Mantra

That which created the body, heals the body

That which created the mind, inspires the mind

That which broke the heart, amplifies the heart

We are perfect
I am perfect
We are One

We are acceptable
I am acceptable
We are One

We are radiating
I am radiating
We are One

Relax, radiate, rejoice

inspired by Joe Dispenza & a pine tree

Art by Barry Wilkinson


Friday, December 23, 2016

Who Am I 2017? A Creator's Guide

Back by popular demand + new and improved:
2017 New Year's Prompts

As 2016 is coming to a close, the days are still filled with grand surprises and multiple adventures....

I have barely had the time to take stock and dream 2017 into being, still baffled about some of the intensities and miracles of this year.  Here are some cohesive prompts for you to check in, take stock and sketch a desired course for this next chapter of our lives, as we like to play in our Western culture.  Dec. 24 and 25th & 28th are activational days, seeding and supporting your visioning and declarations.
Don't deliberate - jump in and write from your heart, not your mind.




2016: A RETROSPECTIVE
1. List 10 things that occurred that you have learned, changed and strengthened you.
2. If you could put it into a word or a sentence, how would you summarize 2016?
3. What feelings or beliefs would you like to release going forward?
4. List the big actions you took that caused great fear.  Did you survive them after executing them?
5. What were the greatest blessings and miracles?




Who am I 2017?
1. If you could choose a word that would encapsulate what you envision this coming year to be and feel like, what would it be?
2.  If you turned the coming year into an ideal affirmation, what would it be?
3.  Which 10 things would you like to invoke in 2017?


4. Which 10 things will you give your self permission to do/be?
5.  What is your theme song that would support your embodiment of this feeling?
6.  Which values would you like to strengthen and honor for this coming year, if you were a perfume, what values would you be spreading?
7. What is your most outrageous vision for your self (and possibly the world) if you had no blocks or time barriers? Plant this seed this coming year. Write a manifesto if you wish.
8. Make a list to respond to the question in this portion.  "In 2017, I AM:_____, _____, etc."
  (ie: I am an avid yogini, a graceful dancer, a joyful writer, a creative cook, relaxed, taking time to explore, producing my first YouTube videos, trusting more, making lasting friendships, etc.)  It can be as long as you wish.  :)


Inner child team work:
1. Allow yourself to go back in time and view yourself now as your 6 year old.  She has been informed that this is who she will be.  How do you feel?  What does she think?
2. Check in at 12 years old.  What does she think of herself of who she will become? Does she approve?
3. How about at 18?  Can she accept you? Write down what she thinks.
4. If she can get on your team and support you in who you are now and who you are becoming , what affirmation would she tell you that would motivate and inspire you with nourishing compassion?
5.  What steps can you take to be your own number one fan, bridging the gap between who your inner child thought you would be and who you are now and also rising into?
6.  Make a list of all people/things/archetypes that inspire you and imagine taking them like vitamins to emanate your vision more magnificently.


Every human being alive today, modern or tribal, primal or over-domesticated, has a soul that is original, natural and above all, indigenous in one way or the another.  Like all indigenous peoples today, that indigenous soul of the modern person has either been banished to some far reaches of the dream world or is under direct attack by the modern mind...For there to be a world at all, every indigenous, natural thing must start singing its song, dancing its dance, moving and breathing according to its own nature, saying its name, manifesting simultaneously its secret spiritual signature.

~Martin Prechtel, Secrets of the Talking Jaguar


Bonus Integrity spread:

Drop me a line and I will pull four cards for you from the Wisdom Keepers oracle deck, to help you cultivate the qualities that are essential for integrity for you in 2017. 
One is for healthy Boundaries
One for Courage
One for Kindness
One for wisdom

Go here to check out Rosy Aronson's wonderful 64 faces:

Some of the energy medicine beings who have been inspiring me, I can't recommend them enough. 
For one, get started with Joe Dispenza on Intention:
Listen to all of his stuff, then go to Marina Jacobi, teaching us about quantum physics:
http://www.marinajacobi.com/my-videos

Energy reports by Vera Ingeborg:
https://www.facebook.com/thewakeupexperience/?fref=ts

Then enjoy some inspiration & a chuckle while you cook & clean with dear ole Matt Kahn:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tov9IdfOdlw


Let me know where you are at, and if you want to work with me in an economic way this year, I have 3 month long programs offered at a self-guided pace with my support, because I believe in you.

$111 or $177 with a private. Get in touch:

Images by Magicwoodstudios.us from "Closer - building a bridge" about the question on the new archetype of the divine feminine, what type of resurrection is she going through?
Question posed and inspired by astrologer Betsy Peerless:



In parting with you + 2016, let's invoke together - as per Joe Dispenza -
"The power that made the body, heals the body!"

Match your love for life with that that gave us life,
#changeyourvibration #truenature #withartandsoul

~Namaste~

Veruschka

Monday, August 29, 2016

THE BENEFITS OF UNREQUITED LOVE AND HEARTBREAK


Here is a little story that unraveled itself once upon a time in Kauai....

Sit down, pour a glass of wine, and allow yourself to be taken on a little journey to Kauai, Hawaii, onto the grounds of an 86 year old woman's home and just add my German auntie's 1950's bikini that was just handed down to me in Germany...

I just heard Doreen Virtue, queen of angel tarot decks and readings, say that she was pulling from an original deck, because it had a lot of depth, rawness and authenticity in it.  Lately, many bands I loved from my teens have been showing up on my radar, ie U2 and Prince giving me messages in their earliest releases....there seem to be codes in there that are now ready to activate something in me....
the point is, when we are raw and unedited and DRIVEN to share a work, before it is compared to something previous, it has that wildness, that genuine art from the source in it.  Not to prove anything or meet quotas, etc.

This has given me confirmation and courage to share a series of selfies I took while recovering from a deep experience of unrequited love.  There are photos I could pose and re-enact, but these were taken with a self timer, BECAUSE I HAD TO DO something to express my situation.

Relax and press play, and see if you can find a place in yourself where this has played out.


Note the last shot being of a swimming pool in the dark....I view this so symbolically as a man made womb, returning into the dark night of the soul, only to be reborn via the alchemy of art and self-expression.  I made these impromptu style, with an Olympus point and shoot, and uploaded them in sequence as a slide show to music, and voila - it told ME the story once I viewed it.  There are many layers there for me and it has a shamanic quality for the viewer.  Imagine walking the gardens of Marilyn Monroe's home...sitting in her bedroom, looking at her swimming pool.  She had it all, but she was an orphan, looking for love.   The tale of the movie icon, yet in the end lonely and scared.

What is interesting is that it felt like I had made a movie after.  Like a door opened.  3 weeks later I met my Twin Flame and 6 mos after that I had my first iphone and instagram account.  I was hooked to be able to manipulate photos right in the palm of my hand.   Since this time I have been documenting my environment in Hawaii and my inner process through selfies.  As much stigma as there is around this, for those of us who have identity issues, it is a wonderful way to reflect.  I owe much healing to this art form in our fast-paced high-tech age.



I may have been a high fashion model in my teens, but my inside did not measure up to what was happening and being offered on the outside.  It has taken me decades to appreciate and share the work that I did.  We are layered with so much shame, no matter how photogenic we are.  Although I have more layers of fat now than ever before, I embraced it whole heartedly in these images and took the opportunity of the era to feature my body in a more acceptable way.

Body image issues are an epidemic and, honestly, a complete waste of your time, but you can't get over it by force.  It is my duty and inspiration to eradicate these belief systems through sharing a photo session with you for you to explore yourself in contrast and with the essence of nature.

In summary, had I not had that heart break, I would not have sought out self expression.  If I did not have the courage to make it public, I would not have had the courage to ask to photograph other people.  As of spring 2015, I have built a portfolio out of sheer love of imagery and the beauty of people.  My public service announcement is, thank pain as an impetus, and it is never too late to do what you love!

As I pondered publishing this slide show called Representing, I dared myself to do a spontaneous photo shoot on my street, with chair and hat, and lo and behold, thanks to the selfie stick, I popped this out, lightly inspired by the movie Cabaret.  So, here you have August 2016, age 47 and I enjoyed all parts of it!  #itsnevertoolatetobecreative




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Saturday, July 2, 2016

The power of worth and neutrality

In my series Amplifying your Abundance, we investigate many things around our blocks and our desire for abundance.  In this one part, we reminisce about our childhood idols and what they bring up in us.  Right now we are at the part of our homework is to share how you feel what it would feel like to be an inspiration to others and were to find ourselves on someone's altar?
Art by Barry Wilkinson

Well, it was interesting to go to Pele, our live flowing lava here on Big Island of Hawai'i, at mother nature's birthing portal, and bring a gift. I picked flowers. I just cut these off and took their life. They are not even mine. I did not make this, yet I took their life to offer to Pele. They are a sacrifice. Do they enjoy this? Are they happy to be the most beautiful flower to be offered?
I know not. I felt silly and useless walking out to the flow last night. It is happening a few miles down the road from our house, yet on foot, it was still over 2 hrs to get out there on wonky, incredibly hard to walk on lava with gusty winds. I was spent. We drank a lot of water. I was looking forward to taking pics.
Yet, alas, my phone just casually, without stimulation, plopped out onto the lava from hip height. And shattered the screen completely. Aaaah, bummer. Onward! 
At our arrival to the absolute grand opera of nature, I was wiped. I lay my offering a few feet away from her. I refuse to watch it burn in front of my eyes. It was the sentiment of I love you. Thank you for letting me be here. Respect. Even tho I feel like I stole your flowers to offer to you. I have nothing.
I am here as I am. Somewhat impotent. How can I claim anything as mine to give? As special? As respect? I laid down and just crashed. I was out. Kaputt. Typical, as I fall asleep in every opera. It's too much grandeur. Yet, I love grandeur. Every time I opened my eyes, I saw the most beautiful shapes of women. The milky way was above me. Strong winds, and an occasional surprise dump of rains...
How do I have front row seats to the most radical natural show on earth? Earth birthing itself....in forms of beauty. Lighting trees on fire like fire works. A spectacle. And yet, at the same time, I slept, like a baby, comforted by it's momma, glad to have made it home and tired after being deeply fed and nourished. The best sleepover campfire ever. Safe and warm. And I was 6 feet away from a blob of bubbling, moving lava.

This morning I woke up, entirely exhausted and full. Tears streamed down my face half the day, feeling overwhelmed by the blank-slatedness the magnitude of such an experience brings.
It's beyond the mind. The mind could never understand what is happening. We went to the farmer's market, late after waking up at 11 am, as we arrived home at 3 am. Nobody is at market, it closes at noon. We order delicious potato pancakes and my favorite Polish Krishna-loving Kombucha-man spots me, and comes running, "here, my friend, this lei is for you" as he leis me with a golden marigold flower lei.....everyone watches. I said "wow, I just saw Pele all night, it was a big journey"....he continues to share with me, that they are only made for Krishna, and that he brought it from his ALTAR!!!! Now, this man, who only wears a pink shirt and serves pink drinks, I still do not know his name, has been the only person in Hawaii who has been happy to see me.....
What if me choosing to go out and view Pele, lie with her, sacrifice my biggest love - taking pictures on my phone - was the perfect gift to give her? Me just showing up in awe. Just because.
Too funny, when we feel down on our luck, and the whole world is against us - look to see those who DO celebrate you! How funny, that I was put on the altar at our farmer's market where I have always felt alienated and like a castaway! (let's toot some miracle bells here please!!)
For those of us going through physical challenges, and feel we need professional help, let us examine the power of the mind. That is the work we are doing here.  What will it take to have front row seats to our organic show?  
If your body is ailing and you can not book expensive appointments, you are not meant to. You just saved money. If all thoughts and beliefs are manifested, then we can also delete and erase them. So as with the body.  Considering you may have the closest up front and personal view, like no other doctor will care to ask you how you feel about your condition.
There have been studies done, where a hypnotized person was told they are being burned by a cigarette. But really they are being touched with a pencil. Yet still they got blisters. The power of the mind.
I am here to empower you that you can tap on everything. Anything can happen.  I have tapped on people in a coma, during child labor, on clearing cysts and lime disease. I have seen miracles with this process.  What will it take for you to make yourself important to you, before giving your power away to those who have the letter p, h and d in front of it.

To clear out body or psycho-emotional stuff:
What are you feeling physically?
How does it make you feel?
Love, accept & forgive yourself.
Are you safe to release the feelings now?

By tapping, our goal is to come into a state of neutrality on the issue and problem. When we accept it and our feelings about it fully, or at least set the intention, it is already out of our hands, so called. You have named it and are clearing the charge around it. This gives it room to disappear. And, that my friend, is the miracle. I have had full body staph infection disappear after getting to the root of the emotional cause.
Please do give a try on your health symptoms! I empower you! You won't believe it, but I am willing to watch you take the risk and report back! I hold the space for miracles, especially physical ones.
Let's experiment powerfully with this and take your health into your own hands.... (save money) and see that amplifying your abundance can also be used for your health.
NO LIMITATIONS!!
‪#‎amplifyingyourabundance‬ ‪#‎truenature‬ ‪#‎energymedicinemasters‬

postscript: as I write this, I listened to a mainstream healing celebrity in the new age arena.  I like listening to her while doing dishes.  She has just had this massive break through this year and is giving some sessions on a live call.  Her whole style now is the method I have been organically using the past 8 years, with Ho'o'pono'pono and inner child work.  Wow, before I would feel panic and scarcity - but right now, this is not competition, it is full validation! Because this style for work is actually healing people...getting to the core, and there is no way without your inner child going with you on this journey....and only you can show up for it, you can't pay anyone else for it. 

Tuesday, May 3, 2016

"I am my healing heart" or How to employ your shame exorcist



(originally published in Rebelle Society 11/2013)




 Shame isn’t something you just pick up.  It  is beaten into you - verbally, emotionally, energetically, by family, culture & media.  Your first innocent expressions being shut down, whether it is in your home or in the schoolyard, about body, personality or social status - we are quick learners and this shapes our future responses.  Curbs our freedom to express.
 Now this wicked henchman, this built-in saboteur, limiting us in our desires, restricting our freedom to act and express safely, has an important job:  to keep you safe.  Yes, he cares deeply for our well-being, wants to make sure we don’t embarrass ourselves, a ridicule preventer designed to protect us.  Yet, as a result, we get paralyzed with fear, experience performance anxiety and have basic deep feeling that we simply are not good enough.


 I hate that critic, who makes my life miserable! He has sabotaged so much of my potential happiness, making me feel guilty and ashamed of all of my shortcomings again and again!
My family did illegal things!  I was a late bloomer! I was the foreigner!  I had to ask someone to the prom! I never went to college!  I have debt!  The list of reasons to be truly ashamed of myself are endless.  I have all the evidence that it might be true.  But if its true, do I really need a henchman to remind me every step of the way what a failure I am?  


 I have done so much therapy and healing work on the first six years of my life.  That reportedly shapes our little beliefs about ourselves.  So much empathy and compassion for that inner child.  And that inner judge remains firmly in place: “you are not good enough to charge more”, “you are not petit enough” , “you spoke out of line” , “you should not have posted that”.....and on and on.  We are so comfortable and familiar with him.  When we are in our power, we can laugh at that voice, but when he returns it seriously feels like the henchman.  Part of us wants to annihilate him!  But what about compassion for the baddie?  
 What if we could rehabilitate him?  Do we want the death penalty for every one in jail, or is there a place for redemption in some way?  Can there be a second chance?


With all the therapy and psychological know-how I have under my belt, how can I still suffer so deeply from extreme shame sometimes?  Feeling so abandoned and rejected, it must be me.  Then I remember:  I am exactly where I need to be - all these little parts of me are still mending.  Truly owning: I am my healing heart.  I need me to be more understanding and supportive.  Right here, right now, pain and all.  This old pattern of shame - who does this belong to?  There is no more room in my heart for you!




So, what about an inner revolution, do not BAN the henchman, but have a compassionate sit-down and have a conversation, a surprising shame exorcism, something like this:


“Dear henchman (or insert applicable title),
 you have done an AMAZING job keeping me in check with all your merciless criticism.  You are excellent.  But that position is no longer available.  I am so sorry I have needed you for this long.  Please forgive me for not knowing any better.  Instead, I am giving you a promotion.  I decided you are so committed, I want to employ you as my wellness-manager!  You have shown such dedication, I am certain you have the potential to accomplish great things in supporting me with reminding me of what I need and knowing what is good for me.  Welcome on board!”


 Decide on more specifics of your well-being manager’s duties.  For instance, my manager knows to implement signs in nature in the form of heart shaped items.  Or rainbows when I arrive.  Or hawks flying over head.  Also, my manager has become extremely proficient in asking me what I want and not giving me “should do’s”.  I have been delighting in this experiment of promotions in my inner arena. 

 Shouldn’t we give violators of sorts a chance for redemption - a sort of ultimate forgiveness of they simply did not know any better, redirection?




When echos of the former henchman ring through, just breathe and send the wellness-manager a sticky note: “I am my healing heart”.

love,

Veruschka

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