The power of worth and neutrality

In my series Amplifying your Abundance, we investigate many things around our blocks and our desire for abundance.  In this one part, we reminisce about our childhood idols and what they bring up in us.  Right now we are at the part of our homework is to share how you feel what it would feel like to be an inspiration to others and were to find ourselves on someone's altar?

Art by Barry Wilkinson

Well, it was interesting to go to Pele, our live flowing lava here on Big Island of Hawai'i, at mother nature's birthing portal, and bring a gift. I picked flowers. I just cut these off and took their life. They are not even mine. I did not make this, yet I took their life to offer to Pele. They are a sacrifice. Do they enjoy this? Are they happy to be the most beautiful flower to be offered?

I know not. I felt silly and useless walking out to the flow last night. It is happening a few miles down the road from our house, yet on foot, it was still over 2 hrs to get out there on wonky, incredibly hard to walk on lava with gusty winds. I was spent. We drank a lot of water. I was looking forward to taking pics.

Yet, alas, my phone just casually, without stimulation, plopped out onto the lava from hip height. And shattered the screen completely. Aaaah, bummer. Onward! :)

At our arrival to the absolute grand opera of nature, I was wiped. I lay my offering a few feet away from her. I refuse to watch it burn in front of my eyes. It was the sentiment of I love you. Thank you for letting me be here. Respect. Even tho I feel like I stole your flowers to offer to you. I have nothing.

I am here as I am. Somewhat impotent. How can I claim anything as mine to give? As special? As respect? I laid down and just crashed. I was out. Kaputt. Typical, as I fall asleep in every opera. It's too much grandeur. Yet, I love grandeur. Every time I opened my eyes, I saw the most beautiful shapes of women. The milky way was above me. Strong winds, and an occasional surprise dump of rains...

How do I have front row seats to the most radical natural show on earth? Earth birthing itself....in forms of beauty. Lighting trees on fire like fire works. A spectacle. And yet, at the same time, I slept, like a baby, comforted by it's momma, glad to have made it home and tired after being deeply fed and nourished. The best sleepover campfire ever. Safe and warm. And I was 6 feet away from a blob of bubbling, moving lava.

This morning I woke up, entirely exhausted and full. Tears streamed down my face half the day, feeling overwhelmed by the blank-slatedness the magnitude of such an experience brings.

It's beyond the mind. The mind could never understand what is happening. We went to the farmer's market, late after waking up at 11 am, as we arrived home at 3 am. Nobody is at market, it closes at noon. We order delicious potato pancakes and my favorite Polish Krishna-loving Kombucha-man spots me, and comes running, "here, my friend, this lei is for you" as he leis me with a golden marigold flower lei.....everyone watches. I said "wow, I just saw Pele all night, it was a big journey"....he continues to share with me, that they are only made for Krishna, and that he brought it from his ALTAR!!!! Now, this man, who only wears a pink shirt and serves pink drinks, I still do not know his name, has been the only person in Hawaii who has been happy to see me.....

What if me choosing to go out and view Pele, lie with her, sacrifice my biggest love - taking pictures on my phone - was the perfect gift to give her? Me just showing up in awe. Just because.

Too funny, when we feel down on our luck, and the whole world is against us - look to see those who DO celebrate you! How funny, that I was put on the altar at our farmer's market where I have always felt alienated and like a castaway! (let's toot some miracle bells here please!!)

For those of us going through physical challenges, and feel we need professional help, let us examine the power of the mind. That is the work we are doing here.  What will it take to have front row seats to our organic show?  

If your body is ailing and you can not book expensive appointments, you are not meant to. You just saved money. If all thoughts and beliefs are manifested, then we can also delete and erase them. So as with the body.  Considering you may have the closest up front and personal view, like no other doctor will care to ask you how you feel about your condition.

There have been studies done, where a hypnotized person was told they are being burned by a cigarette. But really they are being touched with a pencil. Yet still they got blisters. The power of the mind.

I am here to empower you that you can tap on everything. Anything can happen. :) I have tapped on people in a coma, during child labor, on clearing cysts and lime disease. I have seen miracles with this process.  What will it take for you to make yourself important to you, before giving your power away to those who have the letter p, h and d in front of it.

To clear out body or psycho-emotional stuff:
What are you feeling physically?
How does it make you feel?
Love, accept & forgive yourself.
Are you safe to release the feelings now?

By tapping, our goal is to come into a state of neutrality on the issue and problem. When we accept it and our feelings about it fully, or at least set the intention, it is already out of our hands, so called. You have named it and are clearing the charge around it. This gives it room to disappear. And, that my friend, is the miracle. I have had full body staph infection disappear after getting to the root of the emotional cause.

Please do give a try on your health symptoms! I empower you! You won't believe it, but I am willing to watch you take the risk and report back! I hold the space for miracles, especially physical ones.

Let's experiment powerfully with this and take your health into your own hands.... (save money) and see that amplifying your abundance can also be used for your health.

NO LIMITATIONS!!

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postscript: as I write this, I listened to a mainstream healing celebrity in the new age arena.  I like listening to her while doing dishes.  She has just had this massive break through this year and is giving some sessions on a live call.  Her whole style now is the method I have been organically using the past 8 years, with Ho'o'pono'pono and inner child work.  Wow, before I would feel panic and scarcity - but right now, this is not competition, it is full validation! Because this style for work is actually healing people...getting to the core, and there is no way without your inner child going with you on this journey....and only you can show up for it, you can't pay anyone else for it. 

"I am my healing heart" or How to employ your shame exorcist

(originally published in Rebelle Society 11/2013)

 Shame isn’t something you just pick up.  It  is beaten into you - verbally, emotionally, energetically, by family, culture & media.  Your first innocent expressions being shut down, whether it is in your home or in the schoolyard, about body, personality or social status - we are quick learners and this shapes our future responses.  Curbs our freedom to express.

 Now this wicked henchman, this built-in saboteur, limiting us in our desires, restricting our freedom to act and express safely, has an important job:  to keep you safe.  Yes, he cares deeply for our well-being, wants to make sure we don’t embarrass ourselves, a ridicule preventer designed to protect us.  Yet, as a result, we get paralyzed with fear, experience performance anxiety and have basic deep feeling that we simply are not good enough.

 I hate that critic, who makes my life miserable! He has sabotaged so much of my potential happiness, making me feel guilty and ashamed of all of my shortcomings again and again!

My family did illegal things!  I was a late bloomer! I was the foreigner!  I had to ask someone to the prom! I never went to college!  I have debt!  The list of reasons to be truly ashamed of myself are endless.  I have all the evidence that it might be true.  But if its true, do I really need a henchman to remind me every step of the way what a failure I am?  

 I have done so much therapy and healing work on the first six years of my life.  That reportedly shapes our little beliefs about ourselves.  So much empathy and compassion for that inner child.  And that inner judge remains firmly in place: “you are not good enough to charge more”, “you are not petit enough” , “you spoke out of line” , “you should not have posted that”.....and on and on.  We are so comfortable and familiar with him.  When we are in our power, we can laugh at that voice, but when he returns it seriously feels like the henchman.  Part of us wants to annihilate him!  But what about compassion for the baddie?  

 What if we could rehabilitate him?  Do we want the death penalty for every one in jail, or is there a place for redemption in some way?  Can there be a second chance?

With all the therapy and psychological know-how I have under my belt, how can I still suffer so deeply from extreme shame sometimes?  Feeling so abandoned and rejected, it must be me.  Then I remember:  I am exactly where I need to be - all these little parts of me are still mending.  Truly owning: I am my healing heart.  I need me to be more understanding and supportive.  Right here, right now, pain and all.  This old pattern of shame - who does this belong to?  There is no more room in my heart for you!

So, what about an inner revolution, do not BAN the henchman, but have a compassionate sit-down and have a conversation, a surprising shame exorcism, something like this:

“Dear henchman (or insert applicable title),

 you have done an AMAZING job keeping me in check with all your merciless criticism.  You are excellent.  But that position is no longer available.  I am so sorry I have needed you for this long.  Please forgive me for not knowing any better.  Instead, I am giving you a promotion.  I decided you are so committed, I want to employ you as my wellness-manager!  You have shown such dedication, I am certain you have the potential to accomplish great things in supporting me with reminding me of what I need and knowing what is good for me.  Welcome on board!”

 Decide on more specifics of your well-being manager’s duties.  For instance, my manager knows to implement signs in nature in the form of heart shaped items.  Or rainbows when I arrive.  Or hawks flying over head.  Also, my manager has become extremely proficient in asking me what I want and not giving me “should do’s”.  I have been delighting in this experiment of promotions in my inner arena. 

 Shouldn’t we give violators of sorts a chance for redemption - a sort of ultimate forgiveness of they simply did not know any better, redirection?

When echos of the former henchman ring through, just breathe and send the wellness-manager a sticky note: “I am my healing heart”.

love,

Veruschka

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Who am I 2016? An inspired invitation

As 2015 is coming to a close, the days are still filled with grand surprises and multiple adventures....

I have barely had the time to take stock and dream 2016 into being, still baffled about some of the intensities and miracles of this year.  Here are some cohesive prompts for you to check in, take stock and sketch a desired course for this next chapter of our lives, as we like to play in our Western culture. Up until January 5th is still activational energy supporting your visioning and declarations.
Don't deliberate - jump in and write from your heart, not your mind.

2015: A RETROSPECTIVE

1. List 10 things that occurred that you have learned, changed and strengthened you.

2. If you could put it into a word or a sentence, how would you summarize 2015?

3. What feelings or beliefs would you like to release going forward?
4. List the big actions you took that caused great fear.  Did you survive them after executing them?
5. What were the greatest blessings and miracles?

Who am I 2016?

1. If you could choose a word that would encapsulate what you envision this coming year to be and feel like, what would it be?

2.  If you turned the coming year into an ideal affirmation, what would it be?

3.  Which 10 things would you like to invoke in 2016?

4. Which 10 things will you give your self permission to do/be?

5.  What is your theme song that would support your embodiment of this feeling?

6.  Which values would you like to strengthen and honor for this coming year, if you were a perfume, what values would you be spreading?
7. What is your most outrageous vision for your self (and possibly the world) if you had no blocks or time barriers? Plant this seed this coming year. Write a manifesto if you wish.
8. Make a list to respond to the question in this portion.  "In 2016, I AM:_____, _____, etc."
  (ie: I am an avid yogini, a graceful dancer, a joyful writer, a creative cook, relaxed, taking time to explore, producing my first YouTube videos, trusting more, making lasting friendships, etc.)  It can be as long as you wish.  :)

Inner child team work:

1. Allow yourself to go back in time and view yourself now as your 6 year old.  She has been informed that this is who she will be.  How do you feel?  What does she think?

2. Check in at 12 years old.  What does she think of herself of who she will become? Does she approve?

3. How about at 18?  Can she accept you? Write down what she thinks.

4. If she can get on your team and support you in who you are now and who you are becoming , what affirmation would she tell you that would motivate and inspire you with nourishing compassion?

5.  What steps can you take to be your own number one fan, bridging the gap between who your inner child thought you would be and who you are now and also rising into?

6.  Make a list of all people/things/archetypes that inspire you and imagine taking them like vitamins to emanate your vision more magnificently.

Every human being alive today, modern or tribal, primal or over-domesticated, has a soul that is original, natural and above all, indigenous in one way or the another.  Like all indigenous peoples today, that indigenous soul of the modern person has either been banished to some far reaches of the dream world or is under direct attack by the modern mind...For there to be a world at all, every indigenous, natural thing must start singing its song, dancing its dance, moving and breathing according to its own nature, saying its name, manifesting simultaneously its secret spiritual signature.

~Martin Prechtel, Secrets of the Talking Jaguar

Bonus Integrity spread:

Drop me a line and I will pull four cards for you from the Wisdom Keepers oracle deck, to help you cultivate the qualities that are essential for integrity for you. 

One is for healthy boundaries

One for Courage

One for Kindness

One for wisdom

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